ah ha, ah ha

i used to think that these are just phases...
black

when everything seems to be going against u

a while ago there were trouble makers disturbing
then there was a friend who let u down and leave u in complete dispair by becoming alliance with someone who hates you
moving was ok but there are still bits and pieces that are unsorted, plus furnitures already damaged before use
money issues

then
back to surgery
being part of the endoscopist of a scope leading to a perforation
and today
i am just furious
i think i did what needs to be done promptly
and successfully secured the airway
being the on-call i dont think there was any delay

but i was shouted at by the relatives and got blamed for EVERYTHING that happened
including the fact that they could not clarify who the MO in-charge was
and even got a finger pointed at me
almost about to hit me
and asked me to "shut my mouth" when i was only answering a question they asked

why are some people so unreasonable
and inconsiderate

you care so much about your father's condition

but can you not imagine that i also have a father
and that i was not born to be blamed for everything
if it was my fault, i wouldnt be so furious
now i just feel completely frustrated

absolutely no appetite after this whole drama thing

should i leave

adoption day~~~ yokatta ne~~

you have changed so much since i first knew u 8 years ago

i cant tell you how much u've hurt me and our friendship

it's been end of my long holidays for a few days already...
moving has pretty much been settled but still annoying bits and pieces to be repaired...
I LOVE MY NEW FLAT! :)

some piccies from the holidays...

gives me a headache
nothing's ready and i'm moving tmr
shaiiiiiiiiiiiite!